A first blog post feels a little bit like a first date. Well sort of. In this case it’s a date with hundreds maybe thousands of people instead of just the one. I’m probably also a bit more nervous than you guys are since I’ll do most of the talking initially. I’ve always been better at asking questions when I’ve been out on a date. Let her do the talking, that’s my gameplan.

But let’s pretend for a second that we’re all around the same table, drinking wine and trying to get to know each other. Every word is crucial and overanalyzed. What do I say so that I’ll come across like a decent guy?

On a first date I’m usually trying really hard to hide my flaws. Like we all do. I definitely don’t tell my date that I can be really obsessive when it comes to organising and structuring my days which leaves no room for spontaneous trips to Ikea. I also try to leave out that I hate doing stuff just because everyone else is doing it (Don’t expect flowers and chocolate on Valentine’s day for example). And soon I’ll be closer to 40 than 20. This is information that I will eventually share with you, but not necessarily on a first date.

Statistically, how often does a first date lead to a second? 25%? I don’t have a clue. But my chances of seeing all of you again are slim. Most of you will barely make it through this first date with me and then continue to someone more attractive and interesting. A part of you will probably just open the restaurant door, glance at the tall guy sitting at the corner table and take off faster than Usain Bolt. Fair enough. I’m not everyone’s cup of tea.

But for you who stays I promise I’ll try and give you something different. I’ll still do most of the talking but I’m not looking to hide my flaws. I’m aware that I’m still only a little shit but you do get more comfortable in your own skin the older you get. You learn to live with yourself and all your weaknesses.

Football is not that different in that sense. The moment you realise and accept which type of player you are and which qualities you have and don’t have, that’s when you’ll start to grow and be useful to the team. Don’t laugh, but I used to play as a number 10 when I was younger. Luckily I realised that my strengths were more suitable a bit further back.

If I’m nowadays more of a defensive player on the pitch I’m looking to be a little more offensive of it. I want to use this platform to get my thoughts down to words and interact with you readers. I’m not sure how it will look but you have to start somewhere. A bit like when you want to meet someone new.

So, how about that second date?